A couple of years ago I was a relatively new face in web development (and if I’m being real, I still very much am). I had a lot to prove and a lot of motivation to prove it with. I was bright eyed and bushy tailed. There was a skip in my step (or a hop in my stride - whatever the kids or saying these days). I had a lot of passion and an endless supply of motivation. Unfortunately, I’ve noticed a very sharp contrast between the me of then and the me of now.
It’s been a good run and there is a lot I’m going to take from my experiences but It’s time to move on. It’s time to say goodbye to Ruby on Rails.
I spend a lot of time thinking this over and it was by no means an easy decision. I fully recognize I’m throwing a lot to the curb here and getting into something new from scratch will make an already uphill battle even more difficult. I’m going to have to build new relationships and learn new things. As someone who has trouble in both of those fields, that’s a very intimidating prospect.
Even considering all that, I know I made the right decision because I’m not doing it to make things easier. I’m doing it because somewhere in my heart I know it needs to happen. I’m doing it for me.
Before anyone gets upset, Ruby development hasn’t changed in some crazy way that has made me frustrated. It hasn’t gone in some direction I don’t agree with or anything like that. If anything, I’m the one who has changed. Rails development just isn’t fun anymore and if I can’t have fun then what’s the point?
Those close to me deserve better than someone who is constantly frustrated but too afraid to make a move on his career. Today I’m finally making that move.
I haven’t 100% decided where to go from here. Maybe I’ll get into Laravel. Or perhaps I’ll take my career into a whole other direction (I’ve always wanted to get into game development). I’m totally up in the air about it.
What I do know is that I have one last Rails app to finish this year and after I’m done with that I’ll be in uncharted territory again. For the first time in a long while I feel like I have the freedom to have fun and love my job again without outside influence making me feel like I’m trapped.
I hope I will have your support as I close another chapter in my life and get ready to write the pages of a new one.